"One Determined Lady"

That's what he called me. Our realtor lives on Last Chance Court (don't ya love the names of streets around here...) and her husband saw me running today. I had to pull the headphones out of my ears to hear him. He rolled down the window of his beat up old ford truck, wiped the rain off his face and yelled out "you are one determined lady!"

I smiled and said "Yeah, I love it."

Determination is the ability to be your own trainer. That's what I think. That inward desire to push, crawl, cry, fight, move....despite the pain of it all. But where does it really come from? Some would just say...deep inside your soul. I suppose. I know my soul was formed by God. So therefore my logic leads me the fact that determination was given to me by God. Did I just say I know my soul was formed by God? Yes, I did. How do you know for sure, Kathy? That's a long story (my testimony I guess). Let's just say I know, Okay.

I have discovered the more you feed your drive, after rebounding from failure, after pushing past the daunting rhut of safety, there is pleasure. Success of a goal achieved. The desire for a new goal, the will to make a mountain and the tempting challenge to climb it. Life is not getting closer to death, it's getting closer to the top. Closer to the joy. Closer to the Lord. Gotta keep running.

For the record...I crossed American River at the bottom of my street and started up Westville Trail. I ran down Pointed Rocks and back up American River to my original starting point (my street).
Nice run today. Lot of thought.

new songs to ipod..."Breakaway" by Kelly Clarkson
"Undone" by Owsley (this was a free download on itunes last week, finally a good one!).