Easy Breezy...Beautiful

Do you ever feel like you can't live up to your own expectations?

The sun is shining. The sky is pure blue. Temps in the 60's. It's a beautiful day. This should be easy...a piece of cake, right?

well, not exactly. I set out with the mind set...I'm just running Otter Loop, no problem...

For that I think God laughed and decided to push me.

I knew I was going slower than normal, so I thought about marathon runners and how they manage to keep a fast pace.

How do they do it??
They make it look so easy.
Sure, I've been building up my lung capacity, but maybe that's not enough?

I've developed a theory.
They must make a conscious decision while running to lengthen their stride. At each run they must lengthen a little more until they appear to the rest of us, that they are running on pure determination, focused.

I want that.
I want to take longer strides.
I don't want to "jog". I want to run. I want to hurt. I want to push it.
I want to know just how much I can do, and I want that result to amaze me.

I tried it. On the way back, while coming around the park, I lengthend my legs. I took longer steps. I was afraid that I would get tired faster and not be able to go the distance without stopping. That is my worst fear- that I will stop. It feels like failure. BIG FAT FAILURE.
Can't have that.

I surprised myself- I didn't stop. I did feel like hurling.
I don't want to get cauky, though I was today.

Thank You God for humbling me. Help me to be strong.